This week I was accepted into a program in Poughkeepsie, New York. It will provide me with a travel scholarship for me to visit Vassar College. In a whirlwind of college applications, it is nice to get an acceptance to something. It is a nice confidence boost when you are constantly trying to put your best self forward. Trying to convince a complete stranger that you are worthy of a spot in their institution. When it feels like the odds are against are never in your favor, it is nice to be told you are good enough.
This is something that I will never be able to experience without this opportunity. It is a preview of what I will be a part of in just a few months. A sneak peak of college life. I will be able to live in the dorms and sit in on whichever classes I choose. I will meet potential classmates and learn what it is like to be on my own. I have a few out of state colleges that I am considering and they are not close. I feel this will be a way of knowing if I am truly ready to be so far from home.
My mom thinks that I am not ready to leave the nest. She is afraid to see me go off on my own. She has not been supportive of my pushing and is constantly pushing back. I am the first to leave and I am beyond ready to get out; to fly and be free. She sees me as smaller than I am, or maybe she just thinks I'm escaping.
I think I am ready to be out on my own. I know very little about the world and my scope is small, but I feel ready. Maybe it will be terrifying; I will count the hours until I go home. Hopefully, I will never want to come back. I will start waiting for the next time I leave. I will be ready to go see more of the world and I will be excited to venture out again.
Congratulations! I think travel can open our mind like nothing else except maybe books. This is the beginning of good things to come for you.
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