A Journal Entry

Have you ever encountered the feeling that you aren't doing enough?

There is so much that this Earth has to offer and we have only so much access to it. We have only so much time to spend looking out rather than in. Sometimes we just can't find a way to get out of ourselves. Sometimes we just don't have the opportunity to do something with our freedom.
At the moment I am free and the limitations exist in the world around me. There is a bubble that I am pushing on. I have an overwhelming urge to get as far away as possible simply to see something that I don't every day. I crave a new experience. 

To sum myself up in one single word, I would choose "wanderlust". It is what I am driven by. I get bored much too easily. An idle day becomes an itch to simply do something. To simply get up and drive until there is a place I've never seen before or an experience I have not lived through.

I can't live an idle life when the world offers itself to me. There is an expanse that is worth my time and I am instead stuck. I could write pages about how much I miss a place I've never been to. 

I simply want to know everything. The easy way to do that is to go out and discover it myself. I must search for my own purpose in life.

The past few days I've been stuck inside doing the same things I do every day. I have unused energy that will one day consume me like a supernova. 

The purpose of this post is to say that I am trapped in this small town and the rest of the world is calling me. I have opportunity waiting for me if I can simply get to it. Maybe this is fictional internal discourse, but I am willing to give my life to this kind of dream fantasy.

The world is mine for the taking and every day I am getting one step closer to seizing it. 

Christmas

My favorite part of Christmas is helping others have a great experience during this season. This year I have more opportunities than usual to give to my community and help those that wouldn't otherwise be capable of providing presents, meals or even winter clothes to their family. There are people who can barely pay for meals during the year that are now expected to buy presents, clothes and provide Christmas dinner. It's sometimes impossible to survive and provide this experience to children. It's the job of those that are able to get through it to give to those who can't.
Last week began wrapping clermont. The interact club that I am a co-president of is heading this event. I am one of the few people organizing it, giving me a bigger role than I've had in the last few years. We wrapped boxes on Thursday to give to classroom, making them festive and attractive. The interact club is always excited to participate and it's heartwarming to see so many people come out that aren't usually involved in our weekly meetings. It's sometimes disheartening seeing how few people want to join this club and help the community, but when we really need people they show up to help and support our cause.
I am also eligible to give blood in the middle of the season. I donate as soon as I'm cleared after the last time and the end of my waiting period happens to fall in the middle of this time of giving. Giving blood is less personal than other forms of charity, but it is just as fulfilling knowing I could be saving someone's life.
Also this weekend, I got to go out with friends to ring bells for the Salvation Army. We collect money in the red kettles. The people that donate are so sweet and thankful. They are happy to give and although we are simply ringing bells, we are able to give others the opportunity to help this cause.
The Christmas season truly is the season of giving and I'm overjoyed that my first week of December is filled with helping others and giving back to my community. I'm excited to continue this trend and hopefully change someone's Christmas experience for the better.